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Monday, May 2, 2011
2011

This is officially the latest entry for the year of 2011.
New school,new people,new life to adjust to....

Its a bit hard and things are moving at such a fast pace :(
People are racing at a super fast speed like race cars...



I hope I can actually keep up and do well in my studies...

@ 10:36 PM

Tuesday, April 28, 2009
When it all falls apart. Just get back up when they knock you down.

This entry is personally dedicated to Lis Nadine Saiful

Dearest friend,
I know that you're going through alot not only in personal stuffs but also your life in general or overall. Biler aku bacer aku mcm sedih sak... :( Because it also made me realize how I didnt know how bad you were feeling. All I can say is that everything will be fine okay? I know that you're strong. And you've always been there for me when my world came crumbling down or when I'm at my lowest. Just know that I'm here for you pulak... Want to know a secret? I've felt the exact same thing before. There were times where I felt lost and that I feel left behind. Cos Hans is in poly then you're taking ur private dip and I'm still wasting my life in Ite.

It made me feel low sometimes. And aku raser mcm aku yg tak kemaner2 when two of my bestest friend in the world is moving on further,faster,living the normal at-our-age pace. And I even feel that krg has your life sorted out while aku maseh kat situ je... So take in comfort from what I've said yea... I've been in ur shoes too. I know u'd say aper sak Naq kau mrepek but that was seriously what I've felt... It was sad,seriously.

Till now I still believe that even thou we've pursue diff things in diff ways,I truly believe that we will all reach our dreams and find true happiness that all of us deserve. I know that we may have small or huge setbacks but at least I'm lucky cos I still have 2 of the bestest friend I could ever have in my life still with me when life's starting to suck. Really.

K now I'm starting to bore you guys right? Hahaha.. Well,what I'm trying to prove is that Lis Nadine my fren,just hold on and cheer up ok? And I know my smart neighbour will be able to complete her modules. Try harder ok? Don't give up hope! And there's a saying:Its good to be scared,it means you still have something to lose or what..Hhaha.. It means not all is lost for you. hehe.. Anyway,cheer up ok buddy? Movie date tmr yea.. And Hans,busy nmpk? busy nmpk..hehe. Hope you are doing well too... Well till here then. Hungry ar,gonna cook and eat. Till then,stay happy ok people? :) Remember,life is like a wheel. When u're down,someday soon you will be on top again. ok? :)

P.S I feel that by being there for your friend kan,it helps one to forget their own problems and instead of being selfish,we actually get to make another person's life better. And they will in return help you.Hmm.. True ryte? Its something to ponder on...

P.p.s To D.Knoxville & N.Ali..... Haiyo.... How ar??? Hhahaha... :)

Super p.p.s Lis,lagu last warning ehh.. Sedih nah.. takmo emo ehh!!

Baby we weren't meant to be,we just happen.

@ 3:31 AM

Sunday, April 26, 2009
I guess Taylor once felt what I'm feeling right now.



Lyrics | Taylor Swift Lyrics | You%27re Not Sorry Lyrics

Taylor Swift-You're not sorry


This song holds alot of meaning for me. Sometimes,I honestly feel like I've lost my way
and everywhere I turn,the door shuts right up in my face. At times I feel like I can be someone better,
not someone else,but a better me. But sometimes life gets me down.It's like a roller-coaster ride.
It's almost like I forgot how to breathe. . .

To you;
I know that every single day,I'm trying my very best to heal and put you&the memories
that are no good to me,in the past and move on in the future.
There are days where I'm reminded of what used to be but I try to just brush it off.
I don't understand alot of things and what I truly dont get is you still somehow manage to
cause a stir in my mind sometimes.
I don't know what's on ur mind and neither do I want to.
I just want out.Forever.Period.
I don't want to get a single text msg from you either.
Even though I must admit,I do miss you sometimes...

Nobody said it was easy,but no one said it could be this hard.

The things you ask from me are beyond do-able
and I really don't wanna hurt anymore.
I guess I really did love you that much,probably
that's one of the reason why it hurts so much.
But,
Lis is right. You're not the same person you were before.
And indeed,you're not the person I once fell for.

Dear Allah,just make me stronger. . .

To them;
We may have spent too much time blaming
each other for the wrongs done in our lives till
we forget to stop and see what we've done
and where all of this hurt & pain has led us.

Sometimes you hardly talk to me when you should
and you turn a deaf ear when I'm trying to speak out.
I try so hard to be what you want me to be but it's taking
all of me. . .
You kept pushing&pushing and you never seem
to understand.
I'm really trying my best and I wished you could see,
I'm just tired of having to spread myself thin just so you'd
get your piece of happiness.

I really don't know what's become of us.
I really wish you could see. . .





@ 6:39 AM

Almost Perfect

Hey people. . .
A very quick update-We lost to Pasirian(TWP) 2-4 today :(
Well what's past is past but at least what I like about today is that we managed
to have a group discussion after the match,after the de-briefing with the Coaches.
All I can say is that we have to look forward and try harder next time. :)
Training is the opposite of Hoping
I don't really feel like talking much about today,as in about FB,maybe another time.Whatever it is,I just wanna say you guys did a great job. I really believe that each and everyone of my team-mates are capable of doing the best they can. I know you guys can. :) See you guys next Sun for trng then...

p.s Nad,Baiz, biler nak train samer2??? Hahahaha

And btw2,hehe,I saw 2 cute keepers :) Heheh... I think ar.. Kalau tak salah..haha


@ 6:19 AM

Thursday, April 23, 2009
$10 for my thoughts :)

Hello Mates:)
Obviously I've not been updating like for a long time now and finally I have the chance to sit down quietly and pen down all my thoughts and recent events of my life. :) I'm just thankful for still being able to further my studies and though it may seem like a long,long journey,I'm sure that someday I'll reach my goal/dream:) My life from the last entry till now has been pretty filled with lotsa stuffs and only the closest to me knows how my life has been.

Nonetheless,life's pretty sweet too:) I mean I made friends in my new school/class and I met 2 old friends-Ashraf & Nas. It was nice to see them again really... I made a promise that I want to aim for Gold for my Napfa test! And well,its a big surprise that I actually joined the fitness club that is easily traslated as Gym Club. You know a place where you work out and stuffs? Yea... Currently there's only like an entire of 4 girls only and haha the shy me still finds it hard not to be shy to start working out there.

Well,I'm planning to just take things one step at a time and what I aim to make out of this is to prepare myself physically and mentally for my upcoming games and to make as many new friends as I possibly can! :) And definitely not compromising my studies... :)

I apologize to those who are affected by my lack of updates and for not linking them (Sorry Baiz!) haha... Busy laa.. Too many things to do.. And I must admit I get really tired after school nowadays..Dunno why seh.. Hmm.

And haha!! Tmr's gonna be my dept's tele-match! It may sound lame but Im kinda hype for it! Well its cos I know I wont have trouble talking to my classmates and that we can actually bond and have fun at the same time. Plus tmr I'm gonna play soccer with the guys and sweat it out in the gym. And trng at Kallang later that night. Seems tiring? Not really... Well,I bet Lis knows why :) Thats about now then...

Take care people and no matter what happens.dont give up yea? :)

And to all Pinkies,let's train hard yea!!!
SFL No.1 :);)

@ 2:54 AM

Sunday, March 29, 2009
You couldnt find a blinder fool.

I wish I could rip out a page of my memory cause I put too much energy in him and me,
can't wait till I get through this phase cause it's killin' me
too bad we can't rewrite our own history.

Now I can feel you changing me
and I can't afford to slip much further
from the person I was meant to be.

I'm not afraid to walk alone
not giving up but moving on
before it gets too deep
cause your taking all of my energy.


What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?...

I guess somehow I do have to write about it to really get it out of my system.
Love's good when it doesn't hurt right?
And I really don't know if I'm truly 100% recovered from it.
I do think about you once in awhile though,thoughts of you in my head.
I guess it's normal.

"
Nobody has it easy..."

Had a chat with a guy friend of mine just now. Well there was alot that we talked about,alot that I learnt from him. His opinions and advises...And he made this stupid joke"time will heal everything,it's a free medicine...!"... Then he laughed -.-' Hahaha.. Another was he said take it as a bad holiday,then change to another airline lor... Hahaha.. Its so funny when I think about it again...:)

I really have to thank the guys for being there and yea,listening to all my problems.And not forgetting my family and cousins,and also my bestest friends too :)
Thank you.

"I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good only when its right
..."

Somehow when such things happens,part of you really wants to know if the other party feels the same pain or not.Like are they feeling the sourness of it...Do you get what I'm trying to say? Like you want to know if they get hurt too or not in the process.But I'm done crying. Sometimes to be honest,I do feel sad. Like there's a sharp knot in my stomach/heart.But at times,I'm okay. With the help of everyone around,I'm proud to say that Im handling it better than I thought I would. Really...

I once said
"I'll never let go of your hand unless you let go of mine..."
And you did.
So therefore I must go now.

You must think that you've shattered my life and that I'm crying over you...That I'm still holding on,never wanting to move on.
Like you said,I do deserve someone better.
I guess I'm really letting you go now...



You're lucky I know how to act.
Breathe Slow-




@ 3:57 AM

Monday, March 9, 2009
Cookies&Cream Ice-cream Please...*

Ola me friends...
Been visisting the libraries VERY OFTEN these few weeks,what else but to do revisions....
Ystd it rained heavily and all of us were soaked to the skin. Well okay not that bad but our shoes and uniforms were damn wet. :( It made it so uncomfortable to do ur exams while in such conditions man. But thankfully the paper wasnt that bad :) Yeaps... Weeks of mugging does pays off and if you did study,it shouldnt be a problem. Now im just left with one last paper. Technically we only have like 2 papers but they are not easy topics I tell you. But i dont regret taking my second year choice- Wireless Technology. :)

Honestly,I think this is by far the hardest that I've studied in my life.Hhahaha,well i think. :P The most effort that I've put in... Some sort like that laa.... hahaha... I'm quite worried abt my last paper now :( WLAN Maintenence & Security. Golly Ghmolly!!!


After im done with exams and all.its training time!! And my team has a new keeper too :) I've heard of her before... Yea... The next Div1 season is first week of Apr. Aiyayai... ;) So fast sia!! And on wed after the exams,im deciding not to go for training. I just want to chill and relax my mind... :) Yea,I deserve it but now is crunch time!! hahaha....

And after the exams there is sooo many nicenice things coming up! Movie sessions with my neighbour,chalets with family and classmates and......hmm..... yar..hahaha...

Well,thats the updates I have for now,and golly I really like literally have no time for internet and tvs. But my siblings and I have this new fun thing to do which is watch tv programmes together and laugh. k i know you might not get the whole fun-ness of it. Anyways.... The latest season of 'The Biggest Loser' is out. Its really fun and interesting to watch. Damn the trainers are non-mercy!! I mean 500 push-ups,lunges and all.... I think for a normal person to do pon penat seh..But they did it and im like...Wow.... hahah...Like seriosuly amazed sia... And another episode 2 of the girls could do cartwheels!! We were like.." Damn!........" hahaha...I really salute them for staying alive there...

Ok my entry is abit long.Gotta go now,revision time. Take care now people. May God bless you beautiful souls :)



Training is the opposite of hoping :)

@ 8:19 PM